My diary has gone..what a bummer.. im heartbroken like seriously… it has all my memories from the first day im here.. is not that I don’t remember what I wrote in it.. felt sad bcoz now I couldn’t read thru it whenever I felt like one..huhu so… there is nothing I could do other than to start over… so here it goes… today I felt happy… blessed… dizzy?( this occurred after all the fun things happen) I actually didn’t realized that im surrounded with good people… the ones that I already knew for years or even the ones that I just met… what a shame on me for having to notice it know.. but im proud of myself to finally realized it before it’s too late… the people might come and go…. They might forget you (wish I hope not)... all I need to bare in mind that they are there in your life leaving what so called memories which couldn’t be erased unless you got dementia..haha joking~! (an apple a day keeps dementia away..try!!) They taught you something… makes you laugh… be there when you need them.. makes you sad… (this could be for both good and bad reasons..=p) even if you meet them just for a split second…(here me exaggerating..haha) so people… I might not say it directly to you… but THANK YOU..
P/s: not sure whether the title suitable or not for this post.. it just popped out..haha
phm x tajuk itu??? phm2 je la kan.. i suppose to write this starting from last week...coz it was when it all started..(pergh...bunyi cm severe~!)
every TUESDAY we got the whole day for lectures..continuously from 7am until 3.30pm (it never been full pon actually...we only end up waiting for hours for the lecturers to come)..ade la break kt tgh2 tue utk mkn n solat of coz.. okies..our dearest Dr.D decided to teach PHOP( things abt public health..yada..yada..yada..buerkk!) for 2 hours str8 when it should be for only 1 hour..then Dr.H in for another 1 hour for CRP..as a conclusion... 1st week is 2 hours for PHOP..the next week, 2 hours for CRP..it sucks ok!! this is wht i do to avoid the boringness in both of these lectures...
PHOP- ok..Doc dah smpai..cr mp3 dlm bag...sumbat earphone cpt2...sorok bwh tudung...hehe pasang lagu kuat2...bukak notebook..salin tajuk..tarikh....im starting a new job people!! cartoonist on the go!!!! hehe tgk mulut doc gerak2...kelakar...budget khusyuk dgr die bercerita...haha ampun doc...at the end of the lecture, one page of my book filled with lots and pots of sketches...comic strip.. and many more...wink*
CRP- same habit also...but if it the lecture was done in the computer lab...first thing...internet...hehe tp kdg2 doc saje dengki..tutup connection..woo~! xpe...g kt start menu...GAMES...yeay!!! tibe2.. "miss,do you want to study or play games?" Dr.A tegur dr blakang..terkezut makcik...mule la tersipu2...kuang3...okeh..baek bos..saye nak concentrate skarang...picit2 nombor..masuk2 data..enter2... tkn F10 kalu dah siap..ok..relative risk die nie...significant value die nie...%%%%..hapak saye x phm...last2...me n huda kecik trying to figure out cmne nak maen minesweeper..hahahaha ampun doc...
terase nak meraban and wat bende x berfaedah..haha nak bace,bace.. kalu xnak berambus...kuang3 kasar tol makcik sorang nie...huhu tatabahasa or grammar tdk dikire... mane nak sedar, kn tgh dreaming...haha
“Mak,akak gerak dulu tau. Kalau Akanishi call mak cakap ngan die akak jumpe die mlm nanti. X pyh dtg klinik, nanti huru-hara jadinye” dgn sepantas kilat aku grab kot and heels trus msuk kete. FYI, aku dah lmbt utk jumpe ngan interior designer utk ruangan baru di Aroura, klinik khas utk wanita yang telah aku dirikan dgn geng kamceng aku kt medical school dulu. “Ye la…tahu la mak nak goreng ape ngan die nanti” jawab mak sambil geleng kepale tengok aku yang tengah kelam-kabut cari kunci kete dlm handbag.
Akhirnye sampai pun..betulkan tudung sket,touch up make up..finally, I’m so ready for my day!!! Baru je melangkah 2,3 tapak, phone berbunyik plak…nsb baek x melatah dpn pakcik musa…guard yg bertugas kt parking lot klinik sejak dari awal klinik nie bukak. Akanishi, nama yg tertera kt skrin phone aku..mamat nie mmg x phm bahasa melayu btol…ape aku merepek nie..mmg la die x phm… die bleh ckp English je…aku pun angkat la call itu…”hye D,miss u so much!!! “hye Jin, just pretend I believe wht u’ve just said right now.” I giggled…die nie mmg koya btol..” where on earth are you right now? Finish with the tour yet?” aku tanye die.. “don’t say that D. I really,really,really miss you. We haven’t talk to each other for ages.’ “yeah right. And who’s to blame for that? I’m not traveling all over the world every 365 days of my life..” ”you’ are still with your short temper..hahaha the concert has ended and it was a blast!!”. “ Well, kongrats to you on the success of the concert.” “Thanx D.Alright then… sorry ok? Can we meet up later? I’m here.. I’ve got holiday for a month.” “ok. We can meet up at the café. bye for now, I have a busy day ahead” “D wait..!” aku terus stopkan call tue.. tue la susahnye ade bestfren artis…pop idol plak tue…
Aku still ingat the first time aku jumpe ngan akanishi. Aku ngan Faru g holiday kt jepun. Dah lame kitorang idam2kan… akhirnye… right after finish med school ade holiday before houseman start, kitorang pun cabut g jepun..penat kumpul duit tue.. kitorang mmg sekepale bab2 pop idol jepun and korea nie… lantak la bdak boys nak kate kitorang ske pondan ke ape… the fact is that all of them are so handsome and cute and gorgeous and funny and of course so talented.. singing and dance…eye candy yg sgt interesting..hehe plus, aku mmg teringin sgt nak tgk bunga sakura secara live…dlm gmbr and movie, sakura tue sgt la cantik. The second day, kitorang tgh jalan2 kt Shibuya. Tmpt nie mmg tmpt artis jepun ske shopping. Kitorang harap la sesangat dpt jumpe sorang dua artis jepun yg kitorang minat.. kat-tun ke, kinki kids ke, NEWS ke…x kisah la… bkn senang nak jumpe..huhu time tue kitorang tgh pilih2 t shirt… graphic die mmg smart gle2 ar…style harajuku girls of coz la bersepah-sepah…tp aku x minat sgt la..bukan ape…dgn imej bertudung dan suasana kt msia yg kureng seswai utk bergaya sedemikian… I certainly don’t want to be called as committing fashion crime..kt jepun nie bleh la..all the girls are petit,cute and all…aku ckp ngan Faru aku nak g fitting room.. nak try baju yg aku dah pilih td…aku dah terbayang2 dlm kpale bagaimana caranye aku nak gayekan baju tue nanti…hehehehe I never expect anything so unreal, unimaginable, quite bizarre happened to me that very minute. Aku sangkut handbag kt penyangkut, tgh nak tanggal brooch kt tudung tibe2 aku dgr kecoh2 kt luar…aku ignore je la…aku jerit name Faru..” Faru!! wht’s wrong?” “nothing dear.. juz a group of paparazzi chasing someone…artis la kot..but I didn’t see who” “ owh ok.. I called you when im done..” “okies babe” Faru jawab…all of a sudden, “hey, wht are you..” x smpt aku tanye mamat tue tutup mulut aku..”im so sorry miss..can I stay here juz for a while.until all the paparazzi are gone.” Aku angguk and bg signal kt die sruh lpskn tgn die dr mulut aku..rase nak tercekik dah nie…x leh nak bernafas.. “don’t scream ok” angguk kpale laju2..takut gak aku..
Tibe2 aku terpikir, running away from paparazzi?? Artis ke die nie??? X knal pun..mmg la aku x knal, die cover muke die mask mulut tue..with the hood on…ape daa…..die pun lepaskan tgn die…”if u want to hide here, I’ll juz get out of here then” “NO!!! they’ll see me.just stay ok.im not gonna do anything to you so, no need to be afraid..” die pegang tgn aku!!! Hampeh tol…time tue gak sedar yg heels aku tali die dah putus..mst putus time mamt nie langgar aku td…bertambah lg la hampehnye… “ who said im afraid. let go of my hand” “sorry” he said.nsb baek fitting room to besar..die duk kt one side, aku duduk at the opposite.. kitorang terdiam… aku kagum gak ngan mamt nie..bleh thn fluent English die..eventhough ade pelat2 jepun tue.. tibe2 die bersuara, “are you a tourist? “ die pandang aku pelik. Mungkin sbb the fact that aku pakai tudung.. “yes I am” “ im truly sorry for your heels. I ‘ll buy you a new one after the paparazzi has gone” time tue aku still leh dgr org cm terjerit2 panggil name die… ble aku dgr btol2..paparazi tue jerit “Akanishi-san!!Akanishi-san!!!”akanishi??? Kat-tun ke??? Mustahil2….mustahil2….mustahil2… ble aku pusing pandang ke arah mamt td, time2 tue plak die bukak hood and mask die tue…OMG!!!! I m about to faint… Faru, tolong call 991!!!! HE IS AKANISHI JIN!!!!!!!!
ape jdk pas tue??? nanti la...panjang kn..minah nie mmg xde kerje...bukak buku biochem x smpai 5 saat..tp wat bende alah ni xpe plak smpai berjam2...ish...nshtkn sket ye bdak nie..tempeleng 2-3 kali cukup la.. kalu lbey dpt flying kick,mau??!! haha laterz~
dah lamenye x menaip dlm blog nie... sape la tuan punye blog nih...boring tol..huhu not much to say i guess... so why bother writing right? im not reader (except for medical books..haha) well used to but no source (wht??!) pening2...
why do I miss someone that don't even know im exist? (literally~) i said to my fren that missing someone is when that someone is dear to you..examples..missing your family and frens... so in my situation doesn't really fit the term i guess... whatever... that someone probably living his life well... .i guess i prefer to be invisible... watching him from afar is enough..coz i don't have even an inch of confidence to let him know that im here...seeing him every now and then.. soul got drifted away....wee~
to all TWP 07' HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!! dah 2 thn kite kt cni... dah 2 thn kite knal.... may Allah bless our frenship.... all da best for the upcoming adventures... syg korang....
penah terpikir x knape la mostly all the leading company or association etc. are ruled by the Jewish people...jealous?? envy?? i found and interesting article from my fren's blog about a doctor who did a thesis on the jewish people...wht makes them so intelligent... read it here...
semalam Dr.Y msuk group tutor 1...gantikan sape ntah.. disebabkan kami dah abis bincang case heart failure and yg tinggal cuma BHP shj..jadi Doc decide utk wat pop quiz!!!!...huhuhuhu alamak kantoi... jd kami yg genius2 itu menjawab la quiz itu dgn penuh keyakinan...mostly about physiology of Heart Failure coz Doc from physio department...berasap kejap kpale otak...tp xpe la...slh sendiri..sape sruh x study..
doc ade cte pasal kesilapan die time bertugas kt ER of neurosurgeon...
patient's condition: - mild head injury -wheezing -high fever
cepat diagnose!!!! kalu ikut symptom of coz kite ingat yg die ade infection kn?? dats wht Dr.Y thought too...die pun admin la ubat yg ade antipyretic, analgesic and all...utk kurangkn fever tue...BUT!!! drug tu ade gak bronchoconstrictor effect...patient itu dah pun ade wheezing...dan akhirnye...patient itu meninggal dunia...after further diagnose..rupe2nye head injury itu tlh merosakkan thermo regulator kt medula oblongata..itu la yg menyebabkan high fever...(ever thought of it ??) esoknye.family patient (wife n 2 kids) dtg ke hosp to thank Dr.Y kerana tlh berusaha sehabis baik utk slmtkan husband die...well..dats wht they thought.. but like Doc said..hanye die yg tahu perkara sebenar... (n of coz la kitorang..sbb Doc dah cte...huhu) it was so heartbreaking coz the wife oso asked her children to say thank you to Dr.Y..
the moral of the story is...belajar la wahai medical students sekalian... to avoid those kind of mistake...patient's life depends on us...peringatan ini utk sumer kengkawan and of coz myself..Ciao!
